“If he wants her just for her body, that splits her. It means that she is good to him only for a part of her. That’s why when she’s slept with him, she wants to know where the relationship is headed. She wants to be integrated. She craves it. She wants to know that he will be there in the morning, and the next morning, and the next morning. She wants to know that beyond sex, he loves her, he wants her—all the time.”
There are many different seasons that come and go in the single life. For the past couple of years that season for me has mostly been one of contentment and peace. This calming knowledge that God has me in His hand. That I am being loved for a cared for in ways I can not comprehend and most of the time am not even aware of. This is a great season to be in.
Then, without the slightest warning of its arrival. A door has been smashed in and at once i become so aware of this consuming desire. A deep dehydration of a thirst i didn’t even know i had. It starts with a nice guy complimenting your appearance. Then a compliment to your quirky personality. Then a long hug because of course you want to be embraced by the guy that thinks your the greatest thing since sliced bread…even if he doesn’t know the Lord and you know that by doing this you are giving away little pieces of yourself. It feels so unexpectedly needed in that moment. And all the sudden you need more. More validation. More of his reaffirming compliments. More of the momentary peace that comes from being embraced by the one who adores you.
I am in a new season now.
“You want more! You want more! You really like it you want more!” That little girl understands me! That is my exact thoughts when my loving friends [praise Jesus for them] remind me that i must patiently wait for the one He has for me. “But guys! He said i was pretty!…Can’t i just let him tell me I’m pretty a couple hundred more times? This won’t effect my heart at all!” HA! If ever there was an advertisement pushing you to be in Christian community that was it. They remind us of Truth. And truth is, everything up until that point of more more more with a fellow lover of Jesus is beautiful and good. We must not forget that God doesn’t want us to have the thing that is almost beautiful… the thing that is kinda nice in the right light… He wants the real thing for us. The thing that won’t drain us leaving us wanting more. He wants the relationship that leads us back to the fountain that will forever satiate us.
“It is good to find a lover in this life
take her to the waters and never ever leave her dry
But my father always sang this chord
day by day, in every way
Set your eyes upon the Lord
Set your eyes upon the Lord “
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